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((Half Story Post, Half of a regular post where you can comment. Here comes the story!))

Story:

It wasn't uncommon for Ritsu Souma to wake up with a pounding headache. There were many times he had gone to bed crying, and would suffer a morning migrane due to it. He was rather used to the feeling by now. In fact, the real surprise would be if he had woken up without one.

Like he did this morning.

Not that he hadn't been upset last night, or other crucial times during the past week. The fact of the matter was, all of the cruel words he'd heard from family, freinds, and even complete strangers had exhausted his tear ducts. There was a point where he couldn't cry anymore, and his voice had gone raw from apologizing. His entire body had grown exhausted, and it was a struggle to sit up in bed. He stared downward, pondering why fate had been so cruel as to let him live through the night.

Another day of people hating him. Another day of insults, of being told he was worthless.

The doorknob jiggled. Ritsu's mother was on the other end, her voice shaky. "Rit-chan?" She called out. "...Are you hungry? ...I made you breakfast..." Her voice began to rise, in desperation. "...Please come out, Rit-chan, I haven't seen you in days..."

However, through the trial of Q, all Ritsu could hear was "When will you get out of my house, you freak of a son? I've wasted food upon you, a room upon you! Get out of my house, you ape!"

Ritsu swallowed, and covered his hands with his ears. "Gomenasai!" He moaned the formal Japanese apology. "Gomenasai, Oka-san! I'm sorry for making you waste it all on me..."

His mother hung her shoulders, unable to understand what her son was going through. The apologetic routine was normal, but now he was hearing things! He'd accused her of yelling and screaming things she had not said at all! "...Gomenasai, Rit-chan!" She suddenly screamed. "I know you are suffering because you are a monkey and there's nothing I can do at all but I'm still your Oka-san and I will always love you! Have mercy upon yourself, Rit-chan! HAVE MERCYYYYYY!"

...Well, he had to get it from somewhere.

Alas, he interpreted it as her disguist at having an animal as a son...her pure hatred at his pathetic wailings....how the world would have been better if she never gave birth...

"...Gomenasai, Oka-san..." He murmured, unable to scream anything back. He laid down, burying his face into his pillow. 

Oka-san shook her head, and slowly began to walk away, her own tears dribbling down her tired cheeks.

Ritsu breathed aganist his pillow, in and out...how long was he to go on like this? Stuck in his room, afraid to hear what those he loved had to say? To burden these people forever? He missed them...He missed Daisuke, and Dark, and Maraich, and Tooru, Yuki, Shigure, Ayame, Mitchan, Akito...he missed his mother...

But wasn't this better for all of them? If he stayed out of their lives, they would be happier.

...He missed them, though. He missed them so much.

But they were happier this way.

But he missed them so much.

Ritsu sat up, pressing his hands into his face. Why did he have to be so selfish?! Why did he have this longing to be with others?! Why couldn't he just let everyone be happy...

...I want them to be happy...

He slid his feet on the floor.

...But...I...

He scrambled with the lock on his door, granting his freedom.

..But I...I want....

He opened the door wide, and, spotting his mother's shadow not too far off, began running.

I want to be happy too!

"OKA-SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!"
Ritsu screamed, and lunged himself at his mother. She gave a startled yelp, as they both fell to the floor. In a poof of yellow smoke, she had a hysterical little monkey in her arms. It tearlessly sobbed into her dress, clutching onto her with his tiny paws. "Forgive me for my impudence Oka-san, but no matter how much you hate me, I will always love you! You were kind enough to give birth to me, to raise me, to feed me, to give me a roof over my head! I'm sorry for all the trouble I've given you, I'm sorry that I can't make you proud, but I still want to be with you! I love you, Oka-san!"

There was a long heavy pause, as both tried to catch their breath. Then, oh so slowly, gentle hands held up the small monkey. Mother had sparkling tears in her eyes, but a wonderous smile on her face. "Oh, my precious Rit-chan...I love you too...Forgive me for making you think otherwise! You'll always be my beloved son, and belive me, I am proud of you! I would wish for no other child! I'm so sorry for not telling you this! Gomenasai!"

Ritsu stared up at his mother, stunned at all the kinds words in one filling. At last, his own tears began to bubble to the surface, and he nuzzled his small head aganist her chin. "Gomenasai!"

"Gomenasai!"

"Gomenasaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!"


Regular Post (Where you can comment and stuff~) :

...Mother has embraced once more..she's let me back in her life...

...I wonder if it would be too much to ask...if anyone else will, too...

Date: 2007-10-29 06:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolcrayons.livejournal.com
Ritsu-nii...that's so wonderful!

Date: 2007-10-29 08:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
Daisuke...do you still...like me?

Date: 2007-10-29 08:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolcrayons.livejournal.com
Of course I do, Ritsu-nii! I've always liked you!

Date: 2007-10-29 08:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
Oh Daisuke...the words that I don't deserve fill this heart with a joy that can't be expressed...

...I know not what I did to offend you the past couple of days...but I hope I can still be your...big brother...

Date: 2007-10-29 08:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolcrayons.livejournal.com
You haven't offended me at all, Ritsu-nii! I tried talking to you, but for some reason you kept apologizing to everything I said. I'm not sure what happened.

Date: 2007-10-29 08:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
...I...I was so sure that...you words were nothing but...how much of a waste I was...Had I gone mad?

Date: 2007-10-29 08:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolcrayons.livejournal.com
Mr. Ritsu, if I may - there's a little something going around the community that made people not quite themselves, and you were one of the many that got affected by it. It's gone now, so don't worry about it.

I would never think of my brother as a waste!

Date: 2007-10-29 08:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
...Dark...Daisuke...

...I'm sorry for bothering the both of you, during that...thing...I will make up for it, I swear. You are both dear friends to me.

Date: 2007-10-29 08:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolcrayons.livejournal.com
Ritsu-nii...you're the best!

Date: 2007-10-29 08:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
Forgive my impudence...but it is you, who are best.

Date: 2007-10-29 08:58 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lolcrayons.livejournal.com
G-goodness. You're so kind to me! But we can both equally be the best!

Date: 2007-10-29 09:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
I think I'd like that...l-little brother.

Date: 2007-10-29 10:45 pm (UTC)

Date: 2007-10-29 07:24 pm (UTC)
maraich: (And then she said...)
From: [personal profile] maraich
You made up with your mom? That's good.

Date: 2007-10-29 08:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
...Can I make up with you as well? ...I want to be your freind too...

Date: 2007-10-29 08:02 pm (UTC)
maraich: (What)
From: [personal profile] maraich
Make up? We never got in a fight.

Date: 2007-10-29 08:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
...What? ...But...you yelled at me, when you voiced concern for your child...right?

Date: 2007-10-29 08:06 pm (UTC)
maraich: (Bored)
From: [personal profile] maraich
I was just worried about my son. I couldn't find him.

Date: 2007-10-29 08:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
..Oh...oh yes! Of course, I was so stupid. Forgive me, Maraich-san!

Have your found your precious child?

Date: 2007-10-29 08:13 pm (UTC)
maraich: (And then she said...)
From: [personal profile] maraich
He's with Komui. I have to go pick him up.

Date: 2007-10-29 08:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
I am glad he is well. Oh, this is a most happy day!

Date: 2007-10-29 08:29 pm (UTC)
maraich: (cutie)
From: [personal profile] maraich
I haven't gotten him back yet.

Date: 2007-10-29 08:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
Oh! I'm so sorry! I will tone down my happiness, I'm sorry.

Date: 2007-10-29 08:38 pm (UTC)
maraich: (Totally sincere)
From: [personal profile] maraich
Yes. You can celebrate fully when I actually have him back.

Date: 2007-10-29 08:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
Yes, Maraich-san! I will cease all celebrating until you have him in your arms, I swear.

Date: 2007-10-29 09:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouserrat.livejournal.com
Are you feeling all right, Ritsu?

Date: 2007-10-29 09:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
I am feeling better than I have in a long time, Yuuki-san....I'm sorry for making you worry. More importantly, how are you?

Date: 2007-10-29 10:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouserrat.livejournal.com
That's good to hear.

I'm doing all right, I suppose.

Date: 2007-10-30 12:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
I apologize for not giving Machi-san a proper greeting when she came here. It seems...I was not myself.

Date: 2007-10-30 12:33 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouserrat.livejournal.com
That's all right. A lot of people were acting unusual anyway.

Date: 2007-10-30 12:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
I still want to make up for my behavior. Even without this thing happening...I want to be a better person...who can be...just a little selfish...wanting to be happy.

Date: 2007-10-30 12:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouserrat.livejournal.com
...Even with our curse...we all still have a right to be happy.

Date: 2007-10-30 12:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
Yes...even me. I don't want to feel worthless anymore. I want to be happy.

...And...I'm thinking...of calling Mitchan.

Date: 2007-10-30 12:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouserrat.livejournal.com
Really? I think you definitely should do that.

Date: 2007-10-30 12:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] trouser-chimp.livejournal.com
...Thank you, Yuuki-san. I will.

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